A pleasant surprise 開心的驚喜

終於找到一些力量面臨這一切而開時可以睡好一點. 我看一本書建議我們要選正面的比喻看待生命。 生命是一場遊戲或戰爭? 杳選適合你的比喻。 我最近再重一些花及香料就體會到生命像一個花園。 我們必須努力但是天氣和太陽不在我們的掌握。 農夫不會每天為他傻的種子失眠。 他們會一天好好的努力而睡的好。 我學習這種平安針對我的家人和我的夢想。 我一步一步做我可以的。 其他只能交給神。
I've finally started sleeping better and am learning to ride the waves. I read that it is important to use positive metaphors to see our life. Is life a game or a war? Depends which metaphor works for you. Lately I've been planting some flowers and spices on my balcony and I see that life is like a garden. We do what we can do, but when it comes to sunshine and weather conditions, there is still a lot left to chance. But farmers don't spend all night worrying about their crops. They go to sleep content at having done a good days work. I think I'm learning to have that kind of peace, both with respect to loving my family and in terms of my dreams. I'm doing what I can, bit by bit. The rest is up to God.

一個開心的驚喜是我的通學買了一張我得CD，下課請我簽名。 我都沒告訴同學我有出CD，我真的很surprise! 好像天使一般被上帝派下來告訴我"繼續加油...妳不是孤單的" 所以在這爺享謝謝大家的支持。 我是十分的感動。 我一定會加油!
One pleasant surprise was when a classmate came up to me after class and pulled out my CD from his backpack. I was so honored to sign that CD and it really was like an angel sent by God to say, "Hey! I'm still here....keep going!" So thank you to that classmate and all of you who have supported me. It does mean so much to me!

在長大中 Growing Up!

長大就必須面對生老病死。 面對死亡才會發現生命的美及重要性。 我最近試著發現我阿姨的病所產生的禮物。 我這幾個禮拜有許多與外婆和表妹有親密的時間及對話，甚過我來到台灣那麼多年。
Growing up means to be at peace with living and dying…and when we face death we really learn the importance and beauty of life. These days I'm learning not to look negatively at my aunt's tragedy, but at the gift she has given us. I have had more heart to heart talks with my grandmother and cousin these past few weeks than all my years in Taiwan combined.

在挫折時我們學習把真心拿出來依靠彼此。 我試著一個禮拜和外婆吃3到4餐因為他看著親愛的女兒躺在那裡，食慾不好。我可以感覺我們越來越親。 前幾天他握著我的手，苗小的他就全身靠著我。 感到很溫馨及感動。 我知道她感覺到可以一靠我面對這一切。 我也很榮幸可以陪她。
When we go through hard times together we learn to bring out our hearts and share them with each other. I try to eat with my grandmother 3-4 times a week because I hope she can have a good appetite despite the challenge of seeing her beloved daughter in a coma. I feel us growing closer everyday. The other day I was holding her hand and I could feel her lean on me with her small body. It felt so warm and wonderful. I know she feels she can count on me in these times of trouble and I am so glad I can be here for her.

所以雖然這一切都不是我希望會發生的事，但有許多禮物可以發現，我也感覺我一天比一天堅強。 感謝我有神，我的信仰，及許多的朋友協助我在挑戰中!
So even though many of these troubles are things I wish never happened, there are many gifts to discover and%

What Happened Lately?...太多事!

很久沒分享自己的心情…人再面對挑戰時不是很想坐下來體會心請避免兆成更多的難過。 不過有一位很可愛的女生叫Mavis星期天有來河岸留言鼓勵我。 她也提醒我blog快冷掉了。 What happened lately? 很難過的是我很寶貝的阿姨腦幹中風而現在在加護病房重度昏迷的狀態。 我的心情是成重的。 媽媽的病也還沒有一個明確的治療方向，每天只能不斷的為我愛的人禱告。

我的時間分配在鼓勵和陪伴婆婆和表弟妹，照顧媽媽的心情，也錄了一些鼓勵的CD不斷的放給阿姨聽。 有些人說沒希望了，但每次唱歌給她聽他的血壓就往上爬。 幾個禮拜下來也不知道能盼望什麼。 這個感覺很難形容。 中風的前一天很開心的看到阿姨，兩天後只能和她睡覺的樣子互動。 看到表弟妹的難過也再一次提醒我要把握機會珍惜和表達愛給身旁的人。 你永遠不知到什麼時候就沒雞會。 我的表弟很遺憾他從小時候就沒吻媽媽的臉…到現在才發揮心理的愛。也希望這些分享能讓一些人省悟。

不過也有好消息(要不然我就倒下去了!)…我又繼續學中文了，也因為Lili的介紹開時在文化大學學音樂編曲。 可以學東西是我每個禮拜的盼望。 這段時間也和表妹成為更親的關係，讓我很感動。 所以無論多挑戰，任何事裡面還是有可以發現的寶。